After about 2 months of waiting and panicking, I have finally apologized to Beatrice. It feels good to apologize to somebody. For now, I have learned many things in this experience. I believe that this is just a test towards being better friends, I guess. Thanks to the supports given by Maria and my friends, I have found my true purposes in our friendship. I do not want to hurt another person again, and I do not want to be a drag for others anymore. Instead, I will live my life in helping people. I especially want to make it up to my fault to Beatrice, but I am glad that she is an understanding girl. I have come to a realization that she is still a kid. Well I may not be an adult yet, but I presume that kids should know a bit of the world. Also, when I apologized to her, I never expected such a straight answer, an answer in which even a kid can accomplish. She said to me “okay” despite the fact that I have said many things. I admit that I have said too much, and I think I have clearly shown to her that my intentions are pure and clean. After that, I think Beatrice and I should start out cleanly and I will not hurt or offend her again. Instead of that, I’ll make her comfortable when she is with me and live a life of helping not only her, but others as well. I especially thank God for giving me at least an ounce of guts to apologize to her and I really appreciate it. Next time we meet, I’ll make sure that we will be better friends by then.