Today, I have visited about 10 churches to pray, because it is Maundy Thursday. Also, in this day, my grades, well most of them, got released. My point for now is 2.17, but that is still incomplete since the national language subject grade was not yet released. I am hoping to get an A there so that my point will be increased to up to 2.83. But after the prayer, I suddenly realized my true faith after a friend of mine reminded me about it. I suddenly had a mini-dream on the importance of friendship. I shared it to them, but I think no one at least bothered to care. Well, I do not care either because I do not expect any response from them. After that mini-dream, I suddenly realized that I need to protect the bonds between us friends, and not my friends themselves, for they can protect themselves, I know it. But most importantly, I gained the conviction to be by her side. The reason of my conviction was mainly her, but according to my friend, extreme optimism is not good. I do not believe that, and shared my opinions about this. Beatrice stated that it is just an idealism. True that I rely more on idealism more than optimism since optimism is just another term for positive assumptions. I gotta admit, I hate whiners. They should take more action, and let them speak for themselves. I mean they can start on action by speaking for what they believe in. If they have conviction, then they also have faith in themselves, and it is shown by not whining at all at the current situation. The real fight only begins when one is tested in any way, physically or mentally or spiritually. I am not a preacher, but that is what I believe in. This is the lance that carries my heart’s desire: the desire to protect the friendship and sibling-hood. That is why a smile is always a good companion of mine. Without a smile, I cannot carry on.